Every day I want to say

i guess m blogging more when i should be studying more (exams on…) does that convey what i want to say???

huh…i guess not. because, right now, i want to say so many things that i don’t have words…to so many people that i do not know whom to start with…about so many things that i do not know what to say first…myriad, labyrinth, maze…bhool bhulaiya 🙁 my emotions have become and they suffer from the disease called selective amnesia(related to words).

those who have always liked writing, whether they are good at it or not, must have known, that the same words that add immense beauty to certain things: they sometimes are a great limitation. that thing about “somethings loose their things when talked about…” suffering from the same. fear loosing the exactness of what i want to say…or do i really know what exactly i want to say…or what i am thinking about??…

i guess no….sad again 🙁

A Beautiful Day

it’s a beautiful day….

did things that i do seldom. but enjoyed a lot. realizations and learning alike, it was a day full of good things. biggest achievement of the day: woke up early, took a bath, did cooking for the navratri ka pooja. i am alive…which means the food was edible. it was good actually. ab haath jalaya toh accha toh banna hi chahiye naa. then, had an awesome conversation for just 1 minute but with an awesome person (online). it just made my day.

then, got ready, left for nani’s place. and the favorite part comes: an empty local and i get to stand at the foot board and travel…simply wow. winds playing around and nature running along, i just love this travel. chote se safar mein lagta hai zindagi khubsoorat hai. my fav music on roll, i reach home and guess what: i have bhog ka khichdi and fafar ka khana for lunch. it can’t get better than this perhaps. but no…i have more in store. went pandal hopping( only one…ghar ke neeche waala) and got drenched in the rain at the middle of the aarti and then again on the terrace…twice in a day. awesome

then, i get to go to durga mandir…icing on the cake. nothing can match up to the serenity of a place where u can just be yrsellf, where u get to know yrself better, hope of better things, wish for a better life, for being a better person.


someone has rightly said: life is very beautiful only if u know what u want from it..only when u know what is it that makes u happy.


you teach me to laugh…..you teach me to cry
you teach me to live…..you teach me to die

you teach me to love with all my heart
you teach me to hate with all my love

the limits of the sky…..the depth of the sea
you teach me to be..everything i want to be

the constant struggle…the never ending troubles
‘ go beyond the vistas..m there if u wobble’

you teach me the value…of failed expectations
you teach me the profoundness..of ideal inspirations

but most of all..u teach my life
it needs to be lived to the full size
you teach me so much..it brings in humility
it brings in respect…joy and humanity

….i thank all those people in my life who have taught me something or the other..this is for u guys…


life is so many things…happiness for some, sadness for some, struggle for some, success for some…a myriad of nouns, verbs, adjectives- this is what life is. summing it all in a verb, life is ‘TEMPTATION’.

no matter what walk of life we belong to, no matter what stage we are in…there is always a temptation in life. every emotion is a sultry seductress in itself. be it childhood or youth…teenage or old age, none of us is free from temptation. the craving for chocolate is an attraction, the lure of new and perfect love is a fatal kind of fascination. the desire to achieve is also an enticement and the will to be happy in every situation is also a lure so strong, at times it is hard to resist.

it’s good actually. to have temptations in life. they egg us on to do something…to achieve, to be successful, to be jubilant. have realised lately- it is very very important to know which temptations add value to your life. and we must give in to only those. they are not so bad once we learn to chose between the ones that will help us move ahead in life and the ones that will push us back…it’s all a matter of sheer will and outstanding motivation to always rise and shine above the veil of certain temptations. nothing else is needed if we know we dnt want to give in. and there is nothing better than giving in to a temptation that will always put is in a better place…

as oscar wilde puts it

“Do you really think, Arthur, that it is weakness that yields to temptation? I tell you that there are terrible temptations that it requires strength, strength and courage, to yield to.”

The About Life Thing

life isn’t about keeping yr score. it’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about whom you have dated, are dating or haven’t dated at all. it isn’t about who you have kissed, what sport you play or which guy or girl likes you. it’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. in fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes or colleagues that accept you or not. life isn’t about if you have lots of friends or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. life just isn’t about that……

but life is about who you love and who you hurt. it’s about how you feel about yourself. it’s about trust, happiness and compassion. it’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. it’s about what you say and what you mean. it’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. most of all, life is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could have never been achieved otherwise. these choices are what life is about.

Awesome Mausam…

its amazing how a good weather can create awesome moments….and to add on to it if u get good company one could ask for nothing better…

such is the weather of calcutta at the moment…totally awesome. after all calcutta has a nice weather once in a blue moon…a respite from the sticky, sweaty and despicaply humid winds of calcutta have come in the form of rains, cool breeze and a good good feeling. its very rare that u let your hair down and walk freely on the streets with no reason to fear the scorching sun for a change…that u want to feel the feel of calcutta..that u actually say “today i want to walk…mausam accha hai aaj”…hmm…maybe someone above is very happy…though i find no reson why this should be so..specially after what happened at park street…who knows!!!

Self Treasure

i read it somewhere “where your heart is, your treasure will also be”….

and where the heart lie? in worldy treasures?…well, to some extent yes. but the more important ones are not these. they are your friends and family, the love u have for them and the trust they have in you. its worth all the efforts, just to keep someone’s trust. never let it go in the first place…