5 BlackBerry Lessons

1. BlackBerry is an addiction but I am glad I am not addicted to it (My mom might disagree). Proof – my battery lasts almost one and half days :)  Lesson – you can choose to give in to temptations. Not necessary that they win over you !

2.The more apps you use, the faster the battery dies. Useless apps kill its energy.
Lesson – Same with me. Useless things, kill my energy. Uninstall useless applications on your life’s smartphone. Save energy !

3. The phone has great benefits. It helps me connect well with the best people in my life faster. I might always use a smartphone now (damn this bragging).
Lesson – Never leave the best things in life if they make it easy for you. Technology is about the benefits of the device. Not just about the device.

4. Sometimes the BBM slows down. Dunno who should I blame. Airtel or EDGE. It is then that I realize, I did live without a phone and I still can. It is ok to be unreachable at times ! That is usually the ‘me time’.

5. My phone doesn’t have an FM. Or an inbuilt photo editing application. At first I used to crib. Then I realized, it is supposed to be a business phone.
Lesson –  Keep it to the point. Be it anything. There is no need for extras and useless complications. The hard disk must be  kept uncluttered.

Proud to be ‘non-addict’ :D … Yay !!

In Retrospect… The last few months

The last few months, to be honest, have been quite eventful. A whirlwind ride… some absolutely wonderful new entries, some major setbacks… failures, successes…. in all, a memorable journey; an album worth watching in flashback…

Summing up those eventful events, in case I wish to get back to them. Which, I know i will :)

1) Made few wonderful friends… Friendships I will cherish for more than a lifetime.

2) Screwed the most important exam of my life… In the course, screwed a few other things that I should have cared for, for life… Bah !! Life’s most important exam is LIFE itself. And no body screws it :) even if they want to.

3) Found my long lost love, my writing coming back to me. One of the best things that happened so far. Wrote a few things that will keep inspiring me for days to come. Yes ! Some of my own pieces make me smile… :)

4) Learned the importance of caring for a few people more than yourself… learned the importance/ beauty of being meticulous in relationships. Total awesomeness.

5) It was pure chance and randomness that led to me understanding what I want to do in life. And thank God I understood… it makes a huge part of me hassle free, clears loads of things.

6) Learned that good things do happen; sometimes just out of the blue. Did well(better than expected I mean) in XAT. Unexpected. Got a call from XIMB. Even more unexpected… The story continues though… Wait for the upcoming points :)

 7) XIMB diaries- Slogged like anything to try and convert. But. Did. Not. :( …And, that is when I realised two very important truths about my life- There is a bigger plan for me and there is a 24×7 awesome friend for me :) … Dost, I promise lifetime servitude :)

8 ) Started working for the first time :) And I am absolutely loving the experience. Though, I do realise that I am not meant for it… Realizations galore !! :)

9) One of my best achievements, my Facebook Vocabulary group got deleted. Screw FB damn. It had 4000 members which we had religiously and laboriously accumulated over a period of one year. Bah !!.. Does this stop us ? NO… The Vocab Dhaba is very much there… and going strong :)

10) The latest one- took a decision. Not many liked it. But, thank God for giving me the strength to stick to it. I will make sure that it happens the way I have thought about it… Just be with me through thick and thin.

In short… in the last few months, I came to know who I really AM…

Just one suggestion- Finding yourself. It is the most exciting treasure hunt you can ever indulge into… much better than indulging yourself into the lesser intricacies of life.

Food For Soul…

Souls, are like fingerprints… Different for all; Different amongst all. Yet, one thing that binds- is happiness… of any kind.

Food for soul is anything that makes u happy, happier and happiest. And anyone who wishes to be energetic, successful, motivated; needs a well fed soul…

My food for soul-

1) Lessons from Gita

2) My second best hobby :)

3) My writing… My first best hobby. I write when I’m happy, when I,m sad… when I,m alone, when I’m among people, on flights, in trains, buses… whenever an idea flashes through.

4) Nature and it’s beauty and the unparalleled motivation it brings me.

5) The profoundness of genuine motivation - It uplifts the mood like anything; a collection of quotes, sayings, words that simplify and beautify your life; the power of sheer motivation :)

6) A good read that is any day worth the effort. From where I learn, the finer intricacies of life, the nuances and the snippets of life… something that simplifies this journey called life…

7) A few words that bring smile on a face :-

a) Thank you- works wonders when u appreciate people; because they smile. 
 Makes my heart grow fonder :) 

b) You are beautiful- not the face but the soul. A 1000 watt smile; makes my 
 day. Everyone has an iota of beauty that becomes tenfold with an iota of
 appreciation.

c) I am sorry - u never loose if u say sorry to your loved ones even if u 
 weren't the wrong one. Relationships become more profound.

d) It's OK - Ever heard of the phrase, 'to err is human; to forgive divine.'
 u might not become divine, but the feeling is no less when u forgive
 people around; for whatever reasons. Lighter and exonerating.

e) I love you - Not just to that one person, but to all whom you love. Life 
 is too short to hate and even shorter to miss out on love. Tell your 
 loved ones that you love them... with all your heart. A rainbow smile 
 that takes away all clouds of sadness.

Life is all about the simplicities; be it a sand castle or splashing waves… my food for soul. what’s yours? :) … A sand castle on Vagator beach ( Goa ) that signifies beauty and tangibility of life.

Goan Diaries: Prelude :)

Go Goa !!!… Go Goa !!!… Go Goa… !!!

I suppose it’s friends and beaches that have the maximum lure for me :) … Absolutely adorable; beaches are :) . And, this is the pre- Goa experience. M to post a post- Goa update post Goa..haha :P

And, m still to locate my stuff from every nook and corner of my room and m still to pack and m still to do this and that… Disorientation @ it’s peak I swear… I guess that’s me.

And, now comes my list of anticipations… It’s a beautiful amalgamation of Goa calling and life calling (results due this week :( ).. and I anticipate-

- not because Laveen wants me to drink (ass)

- not because Yatish thinks I’ll meditate on the beach (moron)

- not because Shakti thinks I’ll be studying there (as if )

- not because I’m excited about my wardrobe (or rather, suitcase :P )

But because…it’s a phone call that decides my fate…

Goa..ain’t I looking forward to you so much :) :)

Fingers crossed… Here I come …Yo !!!

Between love and life…

Till a few days ago, I just admired these lines by Tennyson,

“I hold it true, whatever befalls, I feel it when I sorrow most…

It is better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all.”

I know some of my friends reading this would want to check if I am running a temperature or not. Trust me, I am as fit as a fiddle. It’s just that, some things have made me realise the better side of these wonderfully youthful, beautiful and ‘life-ful’ lines.

Having always believed in the philosophy; “Always rise in love, never fall…” I refuse to accept that an emotion as serene as love (be it any kind of love- dreams, parents, friends, passions…lastly a boyfriend/ girlfriend…yes they are last on my list) can hold us down. At the end of the day, it is what we choose for ourselves. Loosing is never anything new. We loose all the time…

“Ek saans kho kar hi ek nayi saans milti hai naa…

us saans ke kho jaane mein hi bhalayi hai…

wo saans jaate jaate ek pal zindagi de jaati hai…”

It’s just what we make of that loss. Do we take a lesson? Or do we loose ourselves to the labyrinth of the timeless time?  And even when we manage ourselves out of that maze, do we make a sincere effort at not going back to those tangles…however enticing or promising they might sound? After all; everything that looks sentimental and cute is not love. Life teaches us something each moment. But only when we choose it above everything else. Don’t find life in love…find love in life. It could be anything; a dream, an idea, an ambition, a passion…

Love happens only when you are moving ahead…if you are going back, it’s a trap you have created for yourself. There can never be a choice between love and life…it is always life that encompasses everything. Choose life above everything else…love will happen somewhere on the way… :)

Brush strokes :)

Life is a canvas and we paint our own beautiful painting, we carve our own sculptures. Somewhere down the line, we all are artists of our own fate.

Read a line somewhere: today it may seem a vain line…but 10 years from now, u will eventually realise, that life is EXACTLY the way u want it to be, EXACTLY the way u see it…if u laugh, life is happy…if u cry, life is sad.

Back at home, when I go through my old days, my old things…it’s pure nostalgia and happiness…an amalgamation of ‘good good feeling’ and joy from the absence of regrets over anything…I feel glad for the things I did or the things I didn’t do…coz somewhere down the line I was correct for I have a beautiful life today, with beautiful people in it…

The moonlit sky studded with stars inspires me to go for it…the beauty is impeccable. It inspires me to paint…and I am doing the ‘magic painting’ that I used to do as a kid…wo aati hain naa special painting books…u only need to put water…wahi waali :P . And I am reminded of my childhood. But, now that I look around for an improvised perspective…a beautiful picture comes up “Life has all colors in it…u just need to put the right amount of water to get the desired effect…but careful!!!…too little and it becomes parched; too much and becomes smudged.”

I want to paint…I used to be a good enough painter. Don’t know where it disappeared. The confident brush strokes of my life…they are hiding somewhere in the busier picture. Will have to find them. I want to hold back to certain things that appealed me always…as a child, as a teenager…and I find Wordsworth’s lines so apt now that I think about it…should not we cherish the things that bring us joy forever. Never let go something that brings a smile on your face…. In Wordsworth’s worthy words:

My heart leaps up when I behold

A rainbow in the sky:

So was it when my life began

So is it now I am a man;

So be it when i shall grow old,

Or let me die!!!

New year resolutions

Another year gone by and a whole set of resolutions broken last year :P . But, I made new ones again. These are simple though. Not heavy ones like- “I will wake up early, I will eat less, I will study more” etc etc. I have resolved to do things that I love doing… yeye :D

Here goes my list:

1. I will blog more, I will write more. It is time I did things that I like more and more.

2. I will read more books; books that I started but left midway, books that I want to read but haven’t granted myself with the privilege of the same, books that lie in want of my touch stashed mercilessly on my shelf…they deserve a better treatment and they shall have it.

3. I will take better care of myself…for myself :)

4. I will try and add value to people whenever I can.

5. I will smile more, laugh more, live more. :)

And of course, will try to keep these resolutions in tact, which, perhaps, is the biggest challenge of all. But most of all, it is a new start on old habits…which died out somewhere down the line.

I need a revival…and I am gonna have one for sure.

:(

i feel so afraid at times. all these exams i have taken…i realise that i don’t like any of it. this is not what i want to do…my music and my instrument have mismatched…big time. and m not liking it…at all.

where does my interest lie?…certainly not in solving stupidly useless mathematical problems…who cares if a pipe gets emptied in the umpteenth moment…sucker!! but, do i know what i want to do??…confusion hi confusion hai…solution kuch pata nahi…euugh!!!!..it’s a dirty feeling…

coz, i know i am failing a lot many people…a lot many expectations. i am sure i will do something worthy of my life…that eventually i will do what i want. if not the straight way then maybe after a detour. perhaps, what makes me more afraid is the fact that i might end up loosing some of the most prized people if i fail. as if, relationships depend on these trivial things…are they trivial? or does the dependence exist?…perhaps, it is more about me being able to face those people rather than they forgiving me…all they asked for is my success…and i wasn’t able to give it to them…scares the hell out of me…

then again, there is this feeling; that i should be working for my own self…not for anyone else…and then again there is this feeling: that fear is death…that i shouldn’t be afraid…these exams are no rocket science i know. anyone can do it with the right mind set…but what if this is not what i want to do…guess its too late for eliminating this wrong option.

i am sorry to all those whom i have failed and m failing…this is not what i wanted…pls don’t judge on the basis of my success on pen and paper…judge me as a human being.

to the few who matter the most…whom i can’t afford to loose

Am I Spiritual?

suddenly, out of the blue, i remember an FB comment…”i didn’t know u were so spiritual”. it really got me thinking. am i spiritual? coz, somewhere i believe, spirituality and laziness are like sour neighbors…never together. and perhaps i’m too lazy to be conventionally spiritual.

conventionally spiritual? yeah…like the 100s around me. or 1000s for that matter. people wake up early, have a bath the first thing. ok, maybe the second :P . before having anything, they do their puja. it’s nice. brings a routine and discipline into lives. maybe that’s what is the purpose behind it- enforcing a discipline. good hai naa. but the sad part is, i get disqualified on these grounds :(

i wake up late (that’s because i sleep late…wow!! what an excuse), i never have a fixed time for  bath. it’s not that i sit infront of the mandir daily though i should, at least for 5 mins. phew!!..serious lack in life.

but, i do a lot of temples. any deity. i just love the serenity, the dignified peace even it’s a chaos over there. i went last sunday…enjoyed ganges, enjoyed the peace of ramkrishna ji’s ashram. alas! i forgot to pray. i stood there and just thought “god! m so confused. i don’t now what i want to ask you for.” it happens with me always. i never know what i should tell him when i go to tell him. so, i do that as and when i remember.

does that qualify for spirituality? i guess not…

CAT Diaries

sitting for CAT…bass 3 din aur (i tried putting a smiley but could not find the exact one that would depict my state at the moment)

my journey began last year…seems like i wasted a lot of time not studying for it. but, there is no use crying over spilled milk…even Rowling’s magic won’t be able to bring it back to the bowl. but it has been nice never the less…career launcher has been a great milestone in my acad journey….not sure whether i’ll be able to get through this year or not. but, the association has been wonderful. more then the ratios and proportions of numbers, i got to know the angles and theorems that cover life…

met some wonderfully wonderful people on my way…people who changed the way i look at life…great teachers who motivated and inspired, who emphasized the importance of not giving up the fight…

these lines have always fascinated me

” stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,

it’s when things are worst that you must not quit, rest if u must but do not quit”

and..i have understood this better than ever with CL.

the events, the workshops, the teaching sessions…they are experiences and memories. moments that taught me the importance of wholesome learning, of intellect and knowledge and not mere knowing…that told me where i stand in the midst of all this (nowhere…no wholesome learning :P )

some friendships strengthened during this journey…some instances that have become eternal. though i never quite enjoyed studying for CAT, i liked the peregrination that i did, from knowing nothing to knowing something.

3 days from now, life won’t be very different. the sun will be the same, the sky will be the same, the breaths will be same. it is a test of not what i know but who i am…and that ‘who’ part takes a lifetime to develop. so…it will let me know where i need to go in life..it will tell me how i will reach that point…waiting for the kill..that will let me understand me better, understand life better :)